Thursday, April 15, 2010

mirrorboy! :D

Lol :D

Yup im here, at his house alone (even the cats walked out on me :O ) waiting for mirrorboy to get back from school :S miss him already XD <3

Its been fun, but one cant help but think about the course he should be doing in the time he sees his boyfriend :S Dad and mum knew about me leaving this time and put loads of pressure on me but of course I chose my love over anything else, he is the most important thing to me :) <3.

I promised myself I would study while he was at school to make up for not being in sydney doing my studies like I should be, but his computers dont support the virtual machines/labs that i use to study...i'll keep trying to get it working otherwise i'll be forced to study in a very boring/theoretical way which is how you should NEVER study computers. Plus I didnt pack enough books to study that way due to my baggage limits on the flight here (not to mention PHYSICAL limits :O ).

Anywayz, i am able to phase that stuff out of my mind when he is here with me, and that way i am extremely happy and calm/relaxed.

Talking footy, my nrl team has won 1 game and lost 4 this year (3 straight to this day) upsets me but i have faith in them even tho they are equal last on the ladder. They have a tough task this sunday against the rabbitohs but im sure the eels have improved, are equal to the task and will win it for me and all the other die-hard fans who have suffered as i have this year after they went so well last year...

Yeah so that should do it for now, if i find the time for another post, i will post and so will mboy :). Im going to get back to trying to get these virtual machines working, wish me luck!

lots of love,


P.S. MANY MANY thanks to pinstripe (or as he is known to me, 'Lach') for his support once again in transport through melbourne. love ya mate.

Sunday, April 4, 2010


lol this is an easy post :)

HAPPY EASTER everyone!!! have a fun chocolate-filled day and dont hold back, its easter!!

on the flipside, almost a week til i see mboy :)

love you all..


Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Woah! im back...

hey everyone!

God-dammit i almost forgot my blog address :O its been that long. Im so sorry my loyal followers, things have been pretty hectic and in the midst of it all i forgot entirely about my blog.

Anywayz here i am and heres whats happenin!

Firstly, u'd all be glad to know (i sure as hell am) that im going to see mboy again in april! it feels like its been ages and i miss him so much i dont know how i'll leave melbourne again =/.

Secondly, college/school/whatever u wana call it, lol its been tough and unfortunately ther hasnt been much success. I put it down to playing too much games and not balancing study with it so i had to give up something extremely important to me + mboy--- WoW. Yes i was a 'crack for gamers' addict and it has been really tough, iv been so bored but im hanging in there.
Ironically, i played that game so much that iv found it hard to fill all the time! Iv been able to get things done but then when theres nothing to do, i am a bit sad. It was hard for mboy to accept (i mean it was around 90% of how we communicated) and i had to discuss over the phone with him for hours- it was a big thing in our relationship and very very hard to let go becoz of that.
Something had to be done, however, becoz my family is on my back about my course now and there is a deadline for me to finish this course....heaps of exams to do and they must be done. Heres how i put it- lose the computer or quit wow so i quit wow becoz if i lose the computer then its VERY little communication with mboy and absolutely no leisure.
yeh so that was the big 1.

Thirdly, footy season is back! a good thing, an AWESOME thing i cant wait for my parramatta eels to lift that nrl premiership this year :) good thing about the footy being back is that i can use it as motivation to study and i havnt copped quiting wow as bad becoz footy has been there for a little bit of the time and its something i deeply enjoy to watch. rugby league has got to be the best sport on the planet :P dunno what im gonna do without it in melbourne lol.

Fourthly, something really surprised me the other day. I wanted to give something back to the community. I had done community service before (night patrol and buddies days) and they made me feel good inside. Sure, gays can do that. But something i find a major issue is-- we cant give blood! Now this has got to be discrimination, and its not like me to be political/legal but something has to be done about it! I waited over an hour just to be interviewed so i cud give my blood for the greater good. I filled in their forms, weighed myself in, had plenty of food and water and then they looked at my questionnaire and said becoz i had 'male to male sex in the past 12 months' ticked they wudnt allow me to give blood. Something i didnt take too well becoz whats the difference if a heterosexual couple does 'gay' sex? The risks are the same, so this is discrimination. I told mboy and he totally agreed! at least 10% of the population are gay and they cant give blood unless they giveup sex! and they say they need more blood donors.....
The thing that bothered me most about it is that i had been tested the previous week for STIs and everything and nothing came back positive, yet they wont allow a healthy person whos had sex with a guy to give blood. Anywayz, enuf on the blood-doning-bullcrap i can live with it =/.

Yeah so thats mainly whats been happening over the past few months. Its gone fast, but now the days between me seeing mboy again are going slow =/ i dont expect any forgiveness from you my followers, i will just say sorry and iv noticed that the blogworld has been quiet lately so it wasnt a good thing to not be posting.

love y'all <3

Friday, January 1, 2010

Been a while, hasnt it?


2009 was an eventful year.
You can think in many ways, here in australia how it was eventful with the swine flu, the heat waves (hottest ever november), the death of celebrities like MJ, the Victorian Bushfires and many many more things that i fail to mention.
But 2009 was also an eventful/changing year for many individuals.

For me, 2009 was the year i finally got to learn about what i love in more depth (computers lol).
It brought me confidence in my sexuality, and coming out to admit it then following through- and this made me prove to myself i can be independent and make my OWN choices in life.
It brought me love i thought i would never receive, let alone give to someone else in ways unknown to me.
It brought me a blog, and a network of blogs, with thousands of people supporting each other as well as providing support/advice themselves and sharing personal experiences.
It brought me back (EXTREMELY RECENTLY) my passion for the cello. My god i missed playing it so much and now that i successfully tuned it i am playing it for hours a day :)
It brought among me the loss of my grandpa (his funeral was yesterday) and great grandpa- these are awful events but they helped me reveal to myself and others my sensitive side and mental toughness.
From all the compliments and encouragement, i have developed a high self-esteem- i trule believe in myself and am starting to love what i can do.
And last (that i can think of) but not brought me my first ever real relationship with anyone. Love feels great, it brings happiness to both parties and also a hell of a lot of trust and forgiveness and these are things i am learning as we move forward.

It was a hell of a year for many, like my poor mboy, but 2010 is a nice fresh start for us all and hopefully this will also be an eventful/changing year for all of us- but this time in many good ways.

I know you all are going to backlash when i say this, but apologies for the slow blog posting :)

Love you all, HAPPY NEW YEAR once again <3